and for those of you panicking that something dire happened in my life and that i'm suicidal and goodness-gracious-me-she-needs-a-million-people-asking-her-to-cry-on-their-shoulders, don't worry. i'm fine. nothing happened. it's words, strung together to form lines and sentences and stanzas and paragraphs.

don't make it out to be a declaration of my mental state. if it was i'd tell you.

so relax and don't start with the dramatic questioning yes yes yes?