Thursday, February 22, 2007

i'm going to come right out and ask.
did you lie to me?
did you?

i did not ask for my feelings to be spared.
so why did you lie?

i spent my day feeling bad for you.
feeling guilty that i had caused such a change in you.

i spent my day feeling like it was all my fault
and that you did not deserve to have your present ruined by your past.

it obviously wasn't.

so what was the next day?
a pity visit?
was that guilt? or was that charity?

i'm hurt. and angry. and embarrassed.

i have never lied to you.
i have never had to, or wanted to.

we built this on honesty.

you broke it.

congratulations. you won.

6 Comments:

Anonymous C said...

I know this note is not written for me. But it remind me so much of someone that it hurts reading it. He acts like a kitten that has grown up in the wild. Every single thing you do around him is wrong and too much. And you just want to ask him to pleeeaaase stay still for a little while so you can get a chance to pet him. Just stroke his back and see him relax for a second and realise that you are not there to hurt him. I should get of you blogg, but I like the way you write some days...

7:33 PM  
Blogger Jasmine said...

thanks for that. i like your responses because it's nice to know that someone else in this world actually FEELS things.

do i know you by any chance?

8:27 PM  
Anonymous C said...

I don't think so. I just happened to read your blogg one day and I have come back to it on a few occations because I like the way you write. I ususally don't comment because I don't want to interfere. But the other day your words made me realise something about myself that day and I just wanted to say that I liked it. Hope I didn't intrude.

9:08 PM  
Blogger Jasmine said...

nope. no intrusion at all. like i said, i enjoy your comments.

i hope whatever you realised about yourself was good. :)

10:11 PM  
Anonymous c said...

Well...we are all cowards in our own way arn't we... :)

10:39 PM  
Blogger Jasmine said...

definitely. :)

10:40 PM  

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